The Final Frontier

I only just realized "the final frontier" came from Star Trek. But... oh well the title is their because this post is about my monologue FINAL. I figured "hey, they both have final in them why not?".

Anywho... you're about to hear the story of my monologue, in great detail. Beginning mostly yesterday.

So I had been kind of avoiding making changes to my monologue, because I was unsure. Yes, I'm a putter offer when it comes to things like that. I was really worried about what Mr. Long would think of me, because of certain people that may have proceeded me, and may have made Mr. Long love them. So I don't know I was freakin' out, about what he thought about me, because I was thinking of this as "my debut", or something for theater. It seemed like a first impression moment. Anyways... all of yesterday I was unsure of myself. I kept saying "I can't do it." "I don't want to do it". What can I say it was stupid. So once I was finished with my other homework. I told one of my friends, that I was done caring about that kind of thing, I didn't care what anyone that of me, including what Mr. Long thought. I mostly told her because I needed to hear it said. Anyways. So I practiced and I thought of some good things I could do. During lunch I practiced, and thought of things that I could do. But for some reason it was still blander than I wanted it to be. The bell rang, we were all sitting there people were scared. But they were still going, at least after a little encouragement. For some reason my jitters were gone though. I had been worrying before people were performing, but then I kind of relaxed. That worried me a little I thought "I'm not focusing, I'm going to forget". Then... I just decided that I was gonna go, I got up, introduced myself and then began. It was really weird. All of a sudden I had a totally new life, or as Hannah told me "you found some kind of fire inside!" (pahhaa... we're weird.) Anyways. It was weird, I did things I had never done before. I was getting laughter, YES! But... unfortunately I did a bad stumble, where all of a sudden I couldn't remember a line, and then I had to kind of do a little improv till I could remember... but still I was relieved to be done. We'll see what my grade is! I'm SURE it's not a perfect score, but at least I did my monologue, without passing out or puking. Which I wouldn't really do... but a girl in our class, I SWEAR she was about to do one of those things! Anyways... that's all. A long explanation for a simple thing, and that is all!